How Much Time Do I Have to Change My Mind?

It is time for a new computer. My old Macbook has almost had it—the plastic casing is cracked and flaking, the spacebar sticks, it is not compatible with anymore downloads, the battery life is fleeting, it's memory is almost always full and it has gone from a bright white to a very dingy grey.

The problem, for me, is the money. I have a hard time spending that much money on myself. I didn't have any problem purchasing my husband's new laptop, but when it comes to spending it on something for me, it's very difficult. I think it's a mom thing. Some would probably say it is also a self-esteem thing—maybe I don't think I'm good enough for a new computer. Well, that's not it at all. I'm just practical—I know I'm going to have to save a bit to pay it off, which also means I'm going to have to give up a few minor luxuries to have something I really need.

My last big purchase sat in it's box with the receipt taped to it for three weeks before I could convince myself to use it. That wasn't even close to as expensive as this new Mac I'm looking at. I'm going to do it, I just need some more time. I need to really convince myself that it's necessary. My 'M' button dislodges as I type this.